Will Spectrum Raja be dethroned? Govt under pressure, Raja defiant

The Union Telecom Minister A Raja has made it clear that there is no question of him resigning...meanwhile, his Talaivar down South DMK Chief Karunanidhi believes that his blue eyed poster boy has done nothing wrong. For A Raja, the decision in corridors of Congress in still under discussion with Prime Minister Manmohan Singh returning from G-20 Summit last night.

The parliament came to a standstill on Thursday when the leaked CAG report charged A Raja of bringing a revenue loss of up to Rs1.76 lakh crore. The report also accuses the DMK Minister of ignoring the advice of finance and law ministeries on the allocation of the 2G spectrun to benefit a few operators to whom it was sold in 2008.

A Raja, the man under the line of fire shot back saying that he had followed the policies pursued by his predecessors and had done nothing wrong.

However, the temperatures are running high both at the Centre and State. For the Congress who is facing flaks for corruption from left and the right...want to cleanse their image but not at the cost of sacrificing their alliance with DMK. In the State, the AIADMK's open invitation to the Congress may have ruffled the DMK's feathers though its is putting on a brave front. But if the DMK patriarch sacrifices Raja, it is conceeding to being guilty of the scam which can leave a dent in the assembly polls that is just six months away.

With Congress, DMK and Union Telecom Minister standing strong under the heavy cloud of pressure, Monday will be the deciding factor for:

Raja's fate in the parliament once the CAG report is tabled
Karunanidhi's decision on dethroning Raja or sacrificing the Congress alliance - a decision that is likely to be announced after his grandson's wedding.
Congress High Command's stand to sack Raja or see him through the spectrum scandal
Who will replace A Raja if he is sacked?
Will the Congress High Command note AIADMK's overtures?
Will the opposition in the Centre and State push the right buttons to increase pressure on the UPA alliance
The third front standing with the opposition ups the ante for the UPA alliance to be cornered from all fronts...

So, will A Raja be axed or will he uphold his ministry...we will have to know whoch way the wind blows...when sessions resume in the Parliament and State Assembly on Monday.

Change is the only thing that never changes...

There was this certain need to write today...I was thinking about friendships...how long do they really last ...does the bond that strengthens with time makes us take our relationship for granted...a man who has been the closest friend I could have in my years of friendship knows my past problems but is not happy with the present me...a man who enjoys me knows about my insecurities, my gossips and gets immense pleasure in putting me down...a man who claims to be with me through my moments is only looking for an opportunity to be within me...all these men want something from me that perhaps I can't give, won't give...cos trusted each of them I have...and the end result has been disappointment...

I think the need to be near god, the need to move towards the path of renunciation has been diverted...worldly pleasures...are more alluring than the simple truths of life...I remember the old days...where money was scarce, the bond with god deeper and my feelings vibrating with postivity...now, its just a show that keeps me going...interest in god is something that I can't believe I have lost...interest in pursuing the path of life is no more there...I want to go back in time where thinking of god was more important than office gossip...But since I can't turn back time, I need to bring back the old learnings...

There are only two worldly things you need to attach enough importance to...One is your family, as duty binds you to be free in the end...Two, music - the essence of my soul.

Lets begin with one thing at a time...first, pray. I think thats the toughest for me. It is...Just one mala. Nothing else.

Let the circle of change begin...

ALL GLORY TO GOD

I believe that we are mere puppets in the hands of God.

Since we are born in this world based on our past Karmas, we need to complete the circle of life.

Once our Karmas get balanced, we attain salvation.

Till then, the vicious circle continues.

We are what we are because of our Karmas.

But...

God is so good. So good, that he places the order of our bad Karmas in such a way...that in life we end up getting the good out of it.

We very late in life realise that God did the best thing for us.

So...

It’s very important to pray to the Almighty.

For All Glory is to God.

Love that faded away...

All this while, I have always believed that I am not good enough for him. I have always wished he gets someone better...he would reply saying that you let me decide that...But he never told me his decision. I have waited for him to tell me that he loves me...I have fallen for him and told him so. But his response at those times would be of a friend trying to help me get over him. I would wonder why he is behaving like this. Do you know that when I fell for him, I broke away from all my friends for 3 months to get over him? I was not completely over him then...so he could still affect me.

Now, let me ask you this...he brought the necklace 1.5 years back...then what took him so long to give it to me. Why wait this long? I have always spoken my mind about what I felt for him...All the time. But I would not get definite answers. Trust me...I have tried my best to make a go for it. I think if he would have responded or given proper signs that we are going somewhere I would have done something...or had the courage to make an attempt towards fighting for him. But he did not. I would give up on him and then last December onwards we went platonic cos I told him so...but unbelievably he was SHOWING me with gifts, that he cared. But then I was fed up and bugged that he made me wait so long...It was my EGO and Pride that stopped me.

But I swear we spent some good times together. I know I will be a priority to him and vice versa. But now I know I can’t look at him that way. It was going and gone after a point.

Do you know, the truth is I now believe I do have something good in me...as in confidence level wise. I can do better for myself. I feel that now...after being under confident about everything in life. So this feeling is new. It’s like freedom in small proportions. I feel more confident than before...so when I used to look at him I used to feel inadequate and felt he could do better than me. It may have spoilt what we had in a way but it din't change my feelings at that time. Now...I just know he is not worth fighting for.

When we started getting close...I told him a no that it was never going anywhere. He knew it since then. When my feelings changed he was still unsure about me. We have been on and off for 3 years...When I controlled my feelings he would come to me...When I went to him...he would shoo me away with his cold behavior...It was just not clicking right.

He will be special. I know that. But now I have just let it all go. I am not even stuck up about him. We have always hid things from each other and I don’t think that will change.

You know when you love a guy? - When you know you can Trust the guy. I don’t trust him. So that sums up to what I feel for him.

Ain't No Mountain High Enough

Listen, baby, ain't no mountain high
Ain't no valley low, ain't no river wide enough, baby
If you need me, call me, no matter where you are
No matter how far, don't worry, baby
Just call my name, I'll be there in a hurry
You don't have to worry

'Cause baby, there ain't no mountain high enough
Ain't no valley low enough, ain't no river wide enough
To keep me from getting to you, baby

Remember the day I set you free
I told you, you could always count on me, girl
And from that day on I made a vow
I'll be there when you want me some way, some how

'Cause baby, there ain't no mountain high enough
Ain't no valley low enough, ain't no river wide enough
To keep me from getting to you, baby

Oh no darling, no wind, no rain
No winters cold can stop me baby
No, no baby, 'cause you are my love
If you ever in trouble, I'll be there on the double
Just send for me, oh baby

My love is alive way down in my heart
Although we are miles apart
If you ever need a helping hand
I'll be there on the double just as fast as I can

Don't you know that there ain't no mountain high enough
Ain't no valley low enough, ain't no river wide enough
To keep me from getting to you, baby

Don't you know that there ain't no mountain high enough
Ain't no valley low enough, ain't no river wide enough
Ain't no mountain high enough, ain't no valley low enough

Closing Ceremony

Today I shut the door on someone. Why? I didn't like being questioned about my life and my space for the people in it. It started like this and ended this way. But it is good cos I don't want anymore mess ups. I have already told one not to comeback nor pamper me.

Another one wanted more space than what was allotted when it didn't really matter how much. I also found it nice that I took a little bit of what I will not have now. It feels good. I gave a gift which was not welcomed but I wanted to give it so that is all that matters. 

The recent friend that I have is someone I tease just like that. Being special adds on to the appeal but that is all there is to it. I have only work and work is all should talk about. News should be learnt from these kind of people so it will be good. My goal to be better than this person...in the field I have taken up. It was a dream I had before I got distracted.

Since all my distractions have closed and gone. I should turn back to what I am and where I am going........that is to be the best in the field that I am. I enjoy it and should not be scared or lazy. That is my aim. good stories every day. that is it. life is simple...don't make it difficult.

Chapters of Life

From Now on...there is only one chapter in my life. and that is my work. I think of all the times I have tried this and failed. I know I have a great potential to be a great reporter...But I am afraid of something...I have yet to figure out what that is. I know I am good. Just that it will take time. This is the new chapter in my life. its called the best reporter. I am to be the best. I am going to be the best. Nothing can stop. My fears are unknown and it will be that way...so I have to overcome that and start working. I am the best. Self motivation is the best motivation. I will stop living for others approval. Nothing matters but me and my family. They say and it should be that way.