There was this certain need to write today...I was thinking about friendships...how long do they really last ...does the bond that strengthens with time makes us take our relationship for granted...a man who has been the closest friend I could have in my years of friendship knows my past problems but is not happy with the present me...a man who enjoys me knows about my insecurities, my gossips and gets immense pleasure in putting me down...a man who claims to be with me through my moments is only looking for an opportunity to be within me...all these men want something from me that perhaps I can't give, won't give...cos trusted each of them I have...and the end result has been disappointment...
I think the need to be near god, the need to move towards the path of renunciation has been diverted...worldly pleasures...are more alluring than the simple truths of life...I remember the old days...where money was scarce, the bond with god deeper and my feelings vibrating with postivity...now, its just a show that keeps me going...interest in god is something that I can't believe I have lost...interest in pursuing the path of life is no more there...I want to go back in time where thinking of god was more important than office gossip...But since I can't turn back time, I need to bring back the old learnings...
There are only two worldly things you need to attach enough importance to...One is your family, as duty binds you to be free in the end...Two, music - the essence of my soul.
Lets begin with one thing at a time...first, pray. I think thats the toughest for me. It is...Just one mala. Nothing else.
Let the circle of change begin...
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